Laundry and Packing and Thought

A few days ago Amanda Palmer, the lead singer of the Dresden Dolls and the wife of author Neil Gaiman, published the following words to her web log after racing to Boston from London late last week to be by her friend's side for the end of his life. Her words, as simple as they may be, hit me hard because I know them to be true.

Seeing someone you love in extreme pain is the hardest. It's so hard. You can't do anything and you can't feel the pain for them.

My thirteen-hour journey home begins after work tomorrow and so tonight was for laundry and packing and thought. I have found that the last few days have seemed to me the worst kind of days and I miss my mom and she misses her old life and I wish like hell there could be a different ending and it is so hard and fuck fuck fuck.