It's been almost a week since I've posted anything here and that's partly because Laura was visiting from Dallas and we had Halloween to celebrate, but it's also because, to be honest, I'm burned the fuck out—on everything.

Ever since I got back to the Bay after my mom's funeral I've spent a lot of time wishing that 2015 would just speed the hell on by and that there'd be time to reflect and reset over the holidays so I'd be ready to grab 2016 by the short hairs. But life and time don't work that way and on far too many days I feel like I'm being dragged, at an excruciatingly slow clip, through the ruins of the most exhausting and heavy year of my life and I can't help but think that when it finally does end there's no guarantee that next year will be any better. So yeah, I'm burned out and tired and trying so hard to survive a really messed up time and fuck fuck fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK.